I want to be mad, angry, and furious, but I can’t. Anger is a feeling I haven’t experienced in a long time, and to be honest, I miss it. I miss it because, in times of need, it protected my ego, and my desire to be right was always fulfilled.
In the last couple of years, I have been going through many changes.
People have been conspiring against me in ways you can not imagine. And yes, I am not making this up; there are events where people constantly do things to see me suffer in desperation, but somehow it never works, so I never get mad.
The universe could be sending me a message, telling me to step up and not let anyone make me feel worthless, reminding me that I am worthy.
After all, not getting mad is becoming a good thing.
But let me tell you the whole story.
I was growing in areas where I worked hard, so I deserve to succeed. However, there was this person who hated me (I do not find any other word to say it). However, this person had more power than I did and created a plan to remove me from the area I was exploring and growing in. Somehow, one person in the group spoke up and exposed this hater. The universe removed them from my life, and I kept growing.
I’m now facing a similar situation where a member of that same group is still part of my life and is saying things about me to make themselves look good and make me look bad. And that is why I want to be angry, but I can’t.
I want to be angry to tell them that they can not talk about me because they can not even do half of the things I am capable of doing. Therefore, they are underneath me, and we are not the same.
But I don’t get mad because getting mad in my position is pointless. I don’t have to defend myself because the universe is working in my favor, and the people around me who genuinely care about me are protecting my name and reputation even when I’m not around. And that feeling is more powerful than anger; therefore, I do not want to be angry.
Also, I don’t have to talk; my actions and behaviors speak for themselves.
Maybe I have grown so much that I can no longer get mad. I may be understanding something that those people do not understand. I may be in a peaceful environment where negativity isn’t welcome. The universe may be protecting my energy, my soul, the essence. Maybe the universe is using me to teach them a lesson.
Believe in karma; whatever you put out there will come back to you. Therefore, I always try to do everything with love and compassion, and that is what I am receiving back.
There’s no need to put someone else down to make yourself shine. I am sure we all have encountered those types of people. Miserable people who can not see you winning, people who suffer when you are happy, and they are so glad when you are suffering. People who do thing to destroy you and right after victimize themself so they can look good. I do not want to be around those people; I do not want them in my life.
But well… I will keep being myself. If I hadn’t gotten mad back then, I wouldn’t be angry now. I will let the universe take care of it, and it will work its magic. I will set my boundaries and make them clear; they need to know that I am not someone to be taken lightly.
I am not a victim here; I am the tool the universe is using to teach selfish people the lesson of their lives.
With Love,
Denivez
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