It has been over a year since I felt like myself. My heart was broken, and I promised to love myself every day. I was so into romanticizing my life, the morning walks, the ice coffee lover, the yoga girl, the gym girl, the reader; I used to buy myself flowers, go on dates, skincare routines, and more. I still do most of that thing; however, I do not romanticize it as I used to do it before. Looking back, I did most of that thing to show it on social media and prove myself, to show them that I am strong and that my ego was not hurt, and in the middle of doing that, I found peace.
I had never experienced peace like that before. It was a weird period because many things were happening, not physically but more in the spiritual world. My heart was healing, and I was becoming a better person for me, not for the eye of the world. Therefore, I stopped posting on social media as often as I used to; I skipped a few posts here on the blog or reposted an old post because I was so confused with how I felt, with emotion and this new sensation.
If I had to describe peace, I would say it is nothing but time and space. Time indeed heals everything, and space also heals, and that was exactly what my heart needed.
In my search for peace, I fell in love with many things, including sound healing. I took many courses and learned how to use instruments like crystal bowls, singing flute forks, drums, and more.
Now, I can show myself as an authentic person. I know I’m still growing and glowing; there is so much more of me that I need to explore, but in the meantime, I’m in love with this version of me.
With Love
Denissa
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